if it's not i can't tell; so i'm imploding forever in this moment hopefully attracting destructive force in his direction, and the whole fucking irony of c u l-(-A-: now or never "" worked, b some on elsewill be )-ture will collapse into our increasingingly folded over; arms in hand scattered ashes and skeletal fragment(s)aid shattered differential just energy, plain H2O collapsing on the living room floor every night without you(1,2,3) now) i don't ever want to die again so i am letting go one last time: dc only sleeps alone, no offense or intention contracted or signed along the way. i wish the best to the world out there trying and dying for darwin, i don't mind much except that i miss the way cold felt on my face with my eyes closed and the smell of fresh apples and everything about falling asleep again in saftey, before i couldn't sleep alone, and i was scared of everything, every one i've ever known has hated me and i wish that i could leave now that i can finally see the world in front of me all in manhandled disharmony, and hatred in the trees gnargled at the seems and pestered into gleams suspiciously impair as would be: an airport delapidated whore begging for some more sha king into action lear you old fart at least get up and dance with me, tho daughters have often stripped you two can fight.I haven't anything else to say fo now... someday you all gonna realize that i need to talk more, and if that's got to be paid for, then pay me. If not make a movie or some shit man, fuck, write a book, any one can write a book.... fuck, i miss reading.